I can't focus!

There are so many distractions! I can't work on my English Honors Project for five whole minutes without being sidetracked. I feel so lazy, I can't motivate myself any longer. I decided to start overachieving on everything this coming school year because my study habits have just been terrible for the past year. I just never really thought it would be this hard. Okay, I did, but I thought I'd be a little more strong-willed. As I'm typing this, all these thoughts are going through my head, but I simply have no discipline. I need to work on my project. I NEED TO! And yet, here I am, still typing away my frustration. Somebody help me. Seriously.

My head hurts, that's what I know. And I'm completely stressing out over here. I told John to promise me that if I didn't finish 85 quotes by Friday, I wouldn't be able to see him on our year anniversary. So much for motivation right? I know I'll do it. I'm just expecting too much out of myself. You know, that's my problem. I push myself for something I really don't need to do, and sure that sounds like a good thing, but it doesn't even come easy to me. I'm a puppy in a relay striving to finish first place in a minute; I could have won by 15 seconds and I would have gained nothing more than I would have if I won by 5 seconds.

Off to try and complete 30 quotes. I'll write again tonight if I do finish, and if nothing comes up tonight, you'll know what a failure I am. Byeee!