PROPOSITION 8: ANTI-GAY MARRIAGE

I HATE YOU.
I HOPE YOU DIE.
I HATE CALIFORNIA.
IN THE POLLS, 61% SAY YES TO PROPOSITION 8.
I'M FURIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
MY BRAIN IS BOILING
AND TEARS ARE EVERYWHERE
I SWEAR
IM SO MAD
IM EVEN MORE DISAPPOINTED
MY GRANDPARENTS ARE VOTING YES TO IT.
I'M DOING ALL I CAN TO NOT PUNCH MY WALL.

Huh,

I honestly forgot I even posted that last blog. Sunday I couldn't go to the fair with my group because not only had my asthma gotten worse, but my fever was soaring. I stayed in bed all day - no exaggerations. I swear, I got a headache trying to watch TV so I just stared out my window or at the ceiling throughout that terribly long day. Monday my fever had calmed down, but my asthma, oh my goodness, I had an almost-attack Monday morning. I woke up at 5 a.m., when my dad was downstairs getting ready to leave and I couldn't breathe! I was breathing at a hundred times a minute and my wheezing was so loud due to the congestion in my lungs. I didn't want to tell my dad because, first off, I couldn't even TALK cause I was breathing too fast, and plus, I knew nobody could take me to the doctor's until when my uncle woke up at 7 or 8. So I spent about four hours getting asthma treatments, and I could finally breathe. I tried going to school today, and yes, my asthma certainly was behaving more than it was yesterday, but it was still bad. Oh, and my fever rose again. So I went home today, missing the mandatory class council meeting, but thank the Lord Stephanie understood.

I finished all my work for the English project today. Even my drawing for my cover. I never like to buy pre-made scrapbooks, so I bought a designer's mat to use as a frame, felt to sew in with the pages as the spine, and drew this ship for the front. I found today very useful, although I feel like I have missed so much in school. Anyway, off to start sewing the pages into the felt. Goodnight! I hope I'll be able to survive a whole day of school tomorrow. It still hurts to breathe deeply.

GOSH

I feel horrible.
When I woke up, I felt dead.
And now I feel slightly better, well enough to be able to handle tomorrow, although I'd have to handle tomorrow with a ton of tissues cause I'll be sneezing, blowing my nose, and coughing all day.
What a terrible time to get sick.
I hate this.
I want to die.
Nobody knows whats happening tomorrow.
Unorganized kids!
Ugh!!!!!!
My head hurts.

complaints as if i got it bad

I'm mad that Allex got me sick. Not mad at Allex, but that I had to be sick at THIS time, when I have so much stuff to stress about.
I'm sad that John doesn't seem to care about me being sick.
I'm terrified that tomorrow I'll be even sicker and won't be able to go to the carnival or the LA County Fair for Beeken.
I'm worried that I won't be able to go to school on Monday, when I have a CCC meeting, and Tuesday when there's a class council meeting.
I'm frustrated that I still have a few surprises to plan.
I'm furious that I still have my English Honors Project to work on.

Oh, please, kill me.

Because I'm lame and don't have a diary,

Today:
English timed essay- I'm worried that I got an even worse score than I did when I took the test the first time.
Chemistry test- I screwed up. I screwed up. I screwed up.
Beeken homework- WOOHOO!
English Honors Project- FAIL! No time :|

As if it were a big deal,

I'M PRESIDENT OF THE CULTURAL CONNECTIONS CLUB. It made my day. Haha, I like responsibility and having tasks to do and events to organize. I don't know what else to say. Currently doing Beeken homework that isn't due until Friday. Doing well on EHP, and that's all.

I decided that instead of neon green and neon blue highlights, I'm going to dye the lower layer of my hair blonde and the layer above it bright red. Shereen told me to do blue and I would love to, but I decided that if the red looks good I'll do blue later this school year.

You know how I'm supposed to finish my work for The Odyssey this Saturday? Well I kind of thought about what's going to happen, because tomorrow I have to finish Beeken homework, Friday I'll be spending time at Panera for a Beeken group meeting, and Saturday I'm going to the St. Christopher's carnival and supporting Cityscape Theatré. You should all come at 1:30 and scream and shout and whatever! Haha. No really, I'm serious! Well who cares about the project and Beeken.

iloveyou (:

ich liebe dich

oh gosh!
I don't know how, but I just totally fell more in love with Tokio Hotel today. All I did was download a few songs and I ended up spending the next hour researching on Bill Kaulitz. I mean, come on! He's so adorable! And I was so curious to find out if he was gay, so more research! Woohoo! Part of me doesn't think he's gay, as if it matters! Gah, he's so adorableee! Oh, and "ich liebe dich", which also means I love you in German, is this one song by TH that I'm sure they made when they were still called Devilish, and when Bill was still developing his voice, because he sounds like Nick Jonas! IT'S ADORABLEEEE I TELL YOU! ADORABLE.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp-44B0kewI

Okay, well I spent most of the day, when not looking up Bill Kaulitz on Google and Youtube, on my English Honors Project. I am doing pretty well with managing the time I spend on whatever part of the project I'm working on. I'm pretty sure I can get the rough draft of my work done by this Saturday, and I'll finalize it then. Then I won't have time on Sunday to work on making the scrapbook cause I'll be at the LA County Fair for Beeken, so I have until Wednesday to get it decent looking. Anyway, I feel like doing more work. Bye now!

I'm feeling experimental

I want to do something crazy with my hair without completely killing it and increasing my chance of getting cancer.
I was thinking of doing this thing my hair stylist suggested. It's called a skunk tail or something? And like, you grab sections of hair and tie rubber bands about one inch apart from each other from the top to bottom, and you dye the parts not covered by the rubber bands. I REALLYYY want to do that with whiteee! I know my dad will let me, cause he's into crazy hair styles, but I want to do something with a bright color. My friends told me that I'm not that dark to not pull off another hair color, but no thanks. If I die my hair any lighter color, it would blend in with my complexion. Hahaha. Ugh, off to decide what to do with my hair.

Bow chicka

bow wow, that's what my baby said.
Mow mow mow, and my heart starts pumping.

Oh goodness, stupid stupid stupid Tiffany Chau got this song stuck in my head all day. Haha, i love you Tiffany. I finally searched up the correct lyrics. Bleh, so I'm so used to sleeping late now, I don't know what to do when I'm done with my homework, especially when I've finished Beeken work before midnight. I'm so happy! I have 97% in Zhou's and 105% in Beeken's!!! I was like, jumping in my seat when I went online to check it. I wish I could check my grade in Maroun's class online. My uncle doesn't believe that I'm doing well in school since I'm always "coming home late".

I've recently realized that my philosophies are all screwed up. Everything has to screw each other up. Chinese philosophy stinks. Haha, oh you have no idea how much I love Simonian's class. The ten minutes of relaxation reminds me so much of reiki- except I think reiki is waaaaaaaaay better. Anyway, I've also come to realize that I have no more self-development time. I used to spend hours lying down on my bed just thinking about the world. I have forgotten all my inner reiki techniques, and I've neglected my (non-polluting) scratch "candles". I don't read my World Wildlife Fund newsletters anymore, and dust gets sucked by my psychology books as if it were a vacuum cleaner. I don't take walks at night anymore and watch the stars beyond the city smog. I can't even see the stars beyond the city smog anymore. I haven't researched or done anything about endangered species in the longest time (poor bees). (random fact: less than 100 bighorn sheep left in the yosemite area). I've been a more sarcastic person than ever before. It disappoints me that I'm focusing on academics more than my hippie spirituality (I have no other term to call it) now.

Heartaches and more heartaches. I am a helicopter propeller. I've carried so much and now I'm going down.

Hello world!

I feel like I've become a stranger to the thing I used to obsessively spend all my time on. I guess it's a good thing though that I have better things to do than sit at this computer desk, randomly posting bulletins on Myspace and such.
So Sunday, my daddy took me to this exhibit called "Body Worlds: The Story of the Heart". It was the most sickingly amazing thing I have ever seen. They had real human parts that were donated in there all covered in plastic to be preserved. I swear, they had every single organ, and even all the blood vessels in the face perfectly intact. Oh and they had fetuses that died before being born and I started crying SO HARD, because they were put up in progressive order, and in the 9th week, they had a formed body already and I felt so bad as I kept walking down the exhibit, looking at the 20+ week old babies. Gosh, but anyway, my dad made me go so I would be exposed to the different types of medical fields I may want to take a career in, and after that exhibit, NOOOO way am I becoming an organ specialist.
Okay, so today, there was the Cultural Connection meeting when everyone had to vote for the club officers, and I was nervous like crazy before talking. I don't know why, but it always happens to me. I get nervous when publicly speaking or solo performing and then I enjoy it, but I'm still nervous while doing whatever i'm doing, until the end when I'm like, "DARN! i wish i could keep on going" Haha, I did terrible, I didn't even say I'm in four honors classes and I sing to cancer patients at City of Hope. Blah, well I just came from COH rehearsal and now I have to finish Beeken and chemistry homework. iloveyou! :)

bleh

because i love john less forever.
-john


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john was there.

Civilization? Ew.

trip = fun, boring, bleh.
too much to say.
no time.
beeken homework.
toodleloo.