Bow chicka

bow wow, that's what my baby said.
Mow mow mow, and my heart starts pumping.

Oh goodness, stupid stupid stupid Tiffany Chau got this song stuck in my head all day. Haha, i love you Tiffany. I finally searched up the correct lyrics. Bleh, so I'm so used to sleeping late now, I don't know what to do when I'm done with my homework, especially when I've finished Beeken work before midnight. I'm so happy! I have 97% in Zhou's and 105% in Beeken's!!! I was like, jumping in my seat when I went online to check it. I wish I could check my grade in Maroun's class online. My uncle doesn't believe that I'm doing well in school since I'm always "coming home late".

I've recently realized that my philosophies are all screwed up. Everything has to screw each other up. Chinese philosophy stinks. Haha, oh you have no idea how much I love Simonian's class. The ten minutes of relaxation reminds me so much of reiki- except I think reiki is waaaaaaaaay better. Anyway, I've also come to realize that I have no more self-development time. I used to spend hours lying down on my bed just thinking about the world. I have forgotten all my inner reiki techniques, and I've neglected my (non-polluting) scratch "candles". I don't read my World Wildlife Fund newsletters anymore, and dust gets sucked by my psychology books as if it were a vacuum cleaner. I don't take walks at night anymore and watch the stars beyond the city smog. I can't even see the stars beyond the city smog anymore. I haven't researched or done anything about endangered species in the longest time (poor bees). (random fact: less than 100 bighorn sheep left in the yosemite area). I've been a more sarcastic person than ever before. It disappoints me that I'm focusing on academics more than my hippie spirituality (I have no other term to call it) now.

Heartaches and more heartaches. I am a helicopter propeller. I've carried so much and now I'm going down.