Do people not mess up?

I'm not God. I'm not perfect. I don't have perfect relationships with every single person I know. I have flaws (as every human being should). Many, many flaws. Flaws more impacting than others. Flaws that can sometimes reveal a part of me that I never want to be let loose. I've made mistakes and I've hurt people. I may not show that I hurt MYSELF in the process, but it's true. I'm normally strong in circumstances like these, and they're easily fixable because the person I've hurt normally understands once we talk things through. But in this scenario, I've been shunned and shunned countless times, so I know that I must have really screwed up. I don't know why you'd think I'd have the wrong intentions for being your friend. I LOVE you. I don't know what I do to make it come across as if I'm being fake or whatever you think about me, but I seriously do consider you a good friend that I look up to. You're one of those people that I just HAVE to admire because you are who you are. You have your own voice that you love sharing with the world and have strong opinions that I honestly respect. I have many reasons for wanting a good friendship with you, but I don't know if what I've said is enough to prove it. I've listened to your problems, and I've helped you. I've been nothing but a friend to you, despite all the tiny mistakes friends always do to one another. However, if you're losing respect for me because I just keep making mistakes, I don't think I can stop you. I've tried already and failed. I don't know what you really think of me or what you have to say to this. I know you would think this is all BS or something of that sort, so I won't beg on my knees for you to ever forgive me. I know that I've been a terrible friend to have; I understand. I will no longer bother you (with the exception for mandatory business purposes) because I know you deserve to have a friend who won't treat you as I have.

I also apologize for my thoughts in this blog being highly unorganized. I'm not exactly in the mood to proof-read.
(This blog has been updated about three times.)