Baby are you down, down, down, down, down. Down, down. Even if the sky is falling down.

I love you, Dillon Wang. You know that. Last night, when we talked, from about 7 to 9, we cried and wailed and broke down with each other. And we talked it all out. And you told me everything. You wanted to give it a try, and we said we'd work at it, to make this relationship work. And we'll keep on working.

Then for an hour we laughed and started new. We created new inside jokes and laughed at old ones. We smiled and giggled and kissed each other. And I wanted to show you that I would put all the effort in the world to be with you. You have to work for what you want. It's not always, not ALWAYS, going to be easy. It's easy to be in love. But it's not always easy to be in a relationship. And after what you told me, how you told me you liked the way she looked at you, I felt... broken. I can't be that person for you anymore. You've known her for less than a week, and you'd rather spend more time with her than me?

I thought... I thought you'd want to put some effort into it all. But doing this... after talking it out to good friends at registration, I realized that you doing this is not putting effort at all.

We talked on the phone for hours last night. And half the time I wanted to scream how much I love you. But I couldn't since I was on speakerphone and everyone was in the room with you. You're very confusing...

I told you how I felt about you doing this. Straight out. Everyone told me I shouldn't let you walk all over me. I shouldn't wait for someone that would continue to hurt me, because you're just stringing me along. "If you wanna fuck around with this relationship then so be it. I can't keep on waiting for you if you're going to do this to me." (1:28 pm)
And you said... "Uh huh..." (1:31 pm)
And once my friends saw that, we all knew that you didn't even CARE. So that's it.

I will always love you. I will come back to you if you put some effort into this. Remember that night when we said we'd love each other forever, and you said "but we don't live forever"? I said that reminded me of the Awakening, "We don't live forever, but we ARE, we exist forever." And you said that was deep? Haha. Our flower will always exist. Our love will always exist. Our memories will always exist. You and me... US... WE will always exist. Forever. Beyond forever.

I'm so hurt. But like I said, I will pull myself together as long as you're happy doing what you're doing. You want to do it, and I'll let you. I love you so much Dillon Wang, so much. And I'm breaking my own heart, but it takes two remember? It takes two for a relationship.

We're like rollercoasters. We will always have ups and downs. When one goes down, so does the other. I'm the cart and you're the power to get it moving. Without each other, we wouldn't form a relationship. Relationships need to go down so they can go up again. And if it doesn't go up again, then it's the end. I wanted us to go up again, stay up again.

Some things last. My love for you always will. But yours has faded. You don't want to spend time with me. So even though last night I tried to fix everything, and we did... kinda sorta, even though last night we tried to fix everything, I look at your actions, and the words that you said when you were breaking down do not match what you're doing to me right now.

She was there at the right moment, at the right time. And she has the charm to snatch you away from me. And I see it happening already. After what you told me. After what you did. I see it. I can't be strung along like this. I can't allow myself to be stomped all over, even if it is by someone I love. I know you're confused, so this is why this time, I'll REALLY let you go. I have to. Because without you putting any effort into us, we can no longer be together. It's much too painful for me.

I will never forget last night, on the phone, when you sang to me for the last time. It's Not Over, Fall For You, Fix You, Turn Right... Turn Right. Into my arms... Sigh. I love you.

Best I Ever Had - Drake
Down - Jay Sean
De Toi A Moi - Jesse McCartney